December 2011
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Hair
Funny how the largest bald spot on my head has nothing to do with my surgery, but comes simply from stress.
And there is nothing “spot” about the size of this “bald spot”…
Also, if you would just chill a little on falling out in massive quantities, hair, I would appreciate it very much.
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I cannot recognize the face in the mirror. Is this...
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Everyone is moving forward, and I feel oddly...
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So now that they somehow practically chopped my...
Except it’s strange how they only snipped at my LEFT one, but I can’t smell out of EITHER side of the nose, and every time I ask about it, the neurosurgeon practically says, “LOL YOUR OTHER SIDE WILL COMPENSATE SOONER OR LATER LOL BUT YOUR SURGERY WENT AMAZINGLY WELL” without actually telling me they woops snipped it and woops it’s not going to grow back.
Let’s...
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So we got the bill from the hospital.
$36,021.
CLASSY.
I THOUGHT THE ROOMS WERE LIKE $1000/night.
WHY DOES IT COST OVER $7000 FOR FOUR NIGHTS THE FOOD WAS NOT WORTH $3000. I AM QUITE SURE OF THIS.
I am just going to.
Pretend I didn’t see that.
Oh wait. That was just the hospital bill.
Not the actual surgery.
Hi, insurance.
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I don't know if I should feel obligated to cover...
Thankfully it’s winter now, so when I go outside- out, I would be having a hat on anyways (and shaved part of head = cold, and it’s cold with long hair), but what of when I go inside?
Like the mall or restaurants?
Right now, it just looks like I have a silver tiara on (no joke). Unless you look closely, you can’t really tell that it’s actually a band of blood-covered...
nothingleftforyoutotakeaway asked: Hoping everything goes well tomorrow. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts the entire day <3
Best time was when doctors and surgeons began...
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-6 Days?
I can’t count.
But I am back.
Well, have been back for 2 nights now, constantly oscillating between a headache in some random part of my brain or a mild high from painkiller (probably Tylenol. who knew).
I have my head sliced from past left ear almost to my right ear, 57 staples, and left frontal lobe all fortified with cement! Superhuman yet?
Apparently when they went in to cut the AVM...
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I am so hungry and thirsty and I smell curry…
But I’m not allowed to eat or drink anything, and it’s only 4:20am.
I just wanted to repeat that I love you all, and thank you for all the support and encouragements you have given me in the course of this past half year.
A lot of it were like nightmares and dark tunnels and just a lot of “Why am I here? What am I supposed to...
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So long, farewell Auf Weidersehen, goodbye I leave and heave A sigh and say goodbye Goodbye I’m glad to go I cannot tell a lie I flit, I float I fleetly flee, I fly
whimsycitygirl asked: ヒロコ (ヒーちゃん)へ、It's frustrating, because I know I haven't been on that much but I have been thinking about you these past few days and. Please know that you will be in my thoughts. I am hoping the best for you. ♥♥♥モウたんより。
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@emryssa @syrentime @getthesalt @tug_of_worm...
Thank you guys so much I almost (almost) teared up and I am going to print this (if my mom ever gets off the desktop) and put it in my little duffel bag filled with nothing because my life is defined by electronics and I can’t have electronics fuck clothing I need my electronics. ;~;
I am so glad I got to meet all of you in the past few years, and you guys definitely have been one of the...
incognitoamadeus asked: Just wanted to say, even though my religiosity is currently on the fence, I am praying for you. I hope tomorrow goes well. Good luck Hiroko.
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Mom: Put up on Facebook that you're going in for surgery tomorrow so you won't be able to return calls or texts until you get out.
Me: Why on Facebook?
Mom: You were getting A LOT of texts today!
Me: That wasn't from Facebook.
Mom: It's not?
Me: People on Facebook don't even know I exist.
Mom: Well tell those people that aren't from Facebook that you're going in for surgery tomorrow.
Me: They know.
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I'm sorry I don't smile enough.
I’m sorry if I make you uncomfortable.
I’m sorry if my existence makes you feel uncomfortable.
I’m sorrry if the fact that I have this illness makes it difficult to approach me or talk to me.
It will all be over soon.
The drug they are using to knock me out is the one Michael Jackson overdosed on. At least I know it works.
Anonymous asked: this might cheer you up: sm14133780 at niconico
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I just want a tight, long hug.
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4 Days
Got a haircut.
We will have to fix it after they shave a line from the top of the head down to near my ear under my hairline, but for now, this is much better than having to shave my whole head like they had initially told me.
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5 Days
I just want to sleep all day. Allll dayyyyy.
85% chance the surgery will be ‘successful.’ X% chance that I will come back as the same person I am now.
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6 Days
Crisis averted. The instructor misunderstood the policies about finishing classes.
Thank god.
Now I can actually come back to school next semester.
And I finally e-mailed the apartment complex about having an exception to stay in my apartment next semester while technically being a “part time student.” They want a letter or e-mail from my neurologist, but that should be easily...